It has been awhile since I have written. My mind has been in a whirlwind and I have not had much clarity of thought. My hormones are raging and my poor diet and lack of exercise are not helping them. My emotions are up and down and I feel disconnected from my old life and my friends.
But the fog is lifting. As the sun’s warmth and light is returning, I am finding more time to get outside and be with nature. I am meditating again and my mind is starting to free itself. Hope is returning and things seem to be falling into place.
I am still not sure where I am headed once I graduate but I have some ideas of what I want and what it will look like. I am looking forward to spending time with my family, writing from my heart, and planning engaging classes that will help students and adults make, better choices, find balance and improve health.
I have learned SO much during the past year. I learned that I don’t give up and I can overcome anything. I can fall into the depths of despair one day and rise to shine the next day. I can let go of that which does not serve me well and hold on to that which is dear to me.
I feel I have so much more to offer because of this year. I have lived the life a full-time working mother and a single mother trying to balance work-life-school and not really doing a very good job of it. I have lost myself and developed bad habits but I am turning that around… day-by-day.
As women, we lose ourselves all too easily. Without taking care of our own mental and physical health, we cannot be as effective in our roles as mothers, wives, sisters, teachers, etc. It’s a vicious battle that we will lose if we don’t pay attention, establish priorities, set boundaries and limitations, and take care of ourselves. We cannot do it all.
So I am honoring my journey. It has led me to places I never dreamed and some places I will never go again. But it was a journey, one that never ends.