Have you ever heard the song “Unanswered Prayer” by Garth Brooks? If not, check it out above. It’s a great song about how not getting what you want can be the best thing for you in the long run. This is really hitting home today. Why? Because today I learned that I didn’t get the job I wanted. This is always a tough blow to the ego. However, in reality, I still have a couple other opportunities available to me. I had three doors, 1 just shut. But I still have 3 doors. B, C, and none of the above (aka the freedom to go a totally different direction). I just am not sure which way to turn. I thought I had made my decision, seems it was not so. Ugh!
Decision-making is not easy for me. Heck, as I type I realize that maybe learning to trust my instincts in making decisions is part of this learning process. The ever present battle between gut/instincts and the brain/analytical thought. I know to trust my gut but my brain is so loud, it makes it hard to feel my instincts. Here is where meditation comes in handy. Quiet the mind, listen to your heart. Believe me, it’s on my to-do list for later!
I do feel some disappointment because everything seemed to be falling into place so perfectly. Why would those stars align if it wasn’t meant to be? I wonder what this particular experience was for. What was it supposed to teach me? Maybe it was to test my resolve. Maybe it was to help me figure out what I really wanted. These are not things I can know right now…I will just have to wait.
I do fully trust that the right thing for me is coming. In fact, I know it is. This was just a curve ball or was it? Life IS a journey full of twists and turns. It will be interesting to see where I end up. I am lucky to have these options. I am lucky to have the support of my friends and family.
Anytime I feel that teary eye coming on, whether from disappointment from not getting job, frustration of having to continue this process, fear of the unknown, or whatever emotion wells up during this time of upheaval, I will know that it will all work out.
I am exactly where I am supposed to be.